Some days it is hard to tell the symptom from the disease.
When I say Black Lives Matter and you curl your lip
I can feel you already turning away in your mind.
I can feel you thinking ‘All lives matter’
I can feel you thinking “Look at you.”
“Your voice isn’t the one that needs to be heard.”
When I say that I am a feminist.
I have to parse everything in my mind first.
And I’ll still fuck it up and somewhere someone
Will be insulted because I forgot the asterix
That goes after ‘trans*’
And there I am mansplaining again.
We are quick to turn on our allies
If they don’t measure up
to what we have in our heads.
We see their faults first
Not what is in their hearts.
Rumination is a clinical term
For focusing on the symptoms of a disorder
Rather than solutions for the disorder itself.
A starving wildcat will eat its young.
It doesn’t care that it is on the endangered species list.
It only knows that it is hungry.